No time for regrets, no more looking back.
Monday, June 14, 2010 @ 9:14 PM
it feels like it was th best dream ever.. then i suddenly got sucked back into reality, th harsh world.well i wish it were a dream.. at least i wouldn't have to suffer now.. comparing whut it was then.. and whut it is now. and getting random mini heart attacks at certain times. and.. th difference? like a comparison between heaven and hell.
it's seriously hell now. and if i had a wish without being able to ask for more wishes, i'd wish i didn't have to suffer this kind of hell anymore. or that i could actually know whut was going on, in th first place.
now, it seriously makes me wonder if whut happened two months ago was just whut happened in my dreams, and well it did happen when i was about to sleep. AND if whut happened afterwards was just.. an illusion maybe? how'd i know?
or maybe, just maybe, i was being deceived? and i was too gullible to believe exactly whut i was being told? there's a possibility, ya know. a huge one, at that.
whutever happened after that, was it lie after lie? trying to make me wholeheartedly believe whut was said that night? and it was till th extent a lot would be given up just for that sake? but why? would it make one happy to see someone else suffer this bad? whut is th reason behind this?
if i could just be told exactly whut is going on right now, whut is happening around me, i'd be content.
right now. i'm clueless.
i've got many questions, zero answers.
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